Atma Namaste, I’m Rasika Meena Kaushik, a London based Civil Servant and daughter of Ms. Meenakshi Raman Shyam who gifted me the opportunity to be part of these sessions. I’m someone who has always lived with the notion of having been wronged in life to the extent that I came away from India five years ago to escape from the perceived toxicity of people around me and the feeling that I was total failure. Today I have a very successful career, great friends/colleagues, financial stability, social recognition, respect, honour everything I ever asked for in the materialistic realm. But still, the pain inflicted by people from my past who continue to considered part of family and more importantly the hatred/guilt I carried for myself for being related to these people continues to haunt me. The list is really long and I understand this is still work in progress however, I have come some distance and forgiven some of these people including a nearly 80 year old person. This is someone whom I never wanted to hate or hold anything against but, I’ve repeatedly insulted so much so that I had no realistic possibility of having any love for this person. These sessions gave me the opportunity to forgive this person, a few other elders of my family who have left their physical bodies and a few other teachers/friends/acquaintances from the past. This has bought a sense of stability in my life. Now, I’m much more level headed and my mood swings have almost disappeared. My biggest take away from these sessions is that I do not have to desperately hate the people I cannot love. Thank you Master and Mathimaran Sir for making me realise there is a neutral zone that opens up with forgiveness. I still have a long way to go in forgiving myself and a few others that I do not yet, feel able to forgive in this janma. I’m actually so terrified of addressing these that I’d rather take another janma to do so. This is something I will try my best to delve into in future sessions. That said, I really could not have come thus far without the blessings of Master and the support of these sessions by Mathimaran Sir. Thank you once again.